Life just keeps getting better n better ;)

yo yo wassup..today my off day, decided to go for evening mass, when my mom came home from work, I told her I was following her for mass... she said who invited you, I said Jesus, and she was very happy.. she said 'really ah.. thats good, Jesus invited you... I'm so happy'... hahahaha ;)

then after mass, we went to purmei, there's this new prata stall tucked in the corner of the cooked food rice stall and the popiah/western stall... very nice!! must try must try... me & my mom shared 3 pratas.. 1 cheese, 1 tissue, and 1 banana & honey... soooo deelicious... esp. the banana & honey, and all $1.50 each!! I think the one at Zion Road sooo expensive. So this one is highly recommended by me.. go and try... the uncle also quite nice n friendly, my mom can joke with him.

After that, went shopping at NTUC again!! My favourite past time.. hahaha...mom spent $70 plus!!! :O Yikety yikes.. wow... and I gt interview tomorow.. for PR job at NTUC HQ... really hope everything goes smoothly and I'll get it.. hope they don't ask about the MCs that I've had.. quite alot recently..hahaha...interview is at 5.30pm..after I off work.. can't wait to get a higher paying job.. then can give my mom back some money too.. since everytime its like I'm the one who make her spend spend money.. yikes...

now I only hope I can get 11th July off... celebrating my mom and Tricia's bdae...but I need to ask her for 16th too.. they wanna celebrate Nisha's (colleague) bdae... so I don't know if she (supervisor) will nag and grumble.. arrgghh... but anyway, everything seems to be all good!! Its looking good for me.. hopefully remains this way.. hahahaha... and then just now, at the interchange, saw Jerome.. (one of the kids who's gonna be confirmed) he's so shy!!! Well, just now he was.. haha... hope to see him this fri. okie dokes, shall end now.. wish me luck for tomorow!! and payday faster come.. am also planning to go to JB for 1 day with Karen... yeah she's back frm Aussie!! yippee.. have yet to meet her tho.. dunno how much I will need for JB..

hopefully I'll still have enough...and I'm supposed to meet Meixin & Jolene.. my attachment friends... but I replied her email super late now dun know if she still wanst to meet me anot or is fed up with me... yiket yikes... and to think a few weeks back I was lamenting where my friends were.. now they are right here, but lil ol' me can't manage my time and money.. yikety yikes.. hopefully everything turns out all good and well, take care yah...

God bless,Love, Marie

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She's so lucky...

Okie dokes, hihi.. how have you been..

Let me start with a recount of what happened last Sat.. last Sat, I worked from 10am to 5pm... this time, my counter was just beside Yana, this Malay girl, so I talked to her a bit.. also went for lunch together with her.. she's one year younger than me, 1983, but she already has a baby and she just got married one week ago, last Sun! But I couldn't go for her wedding as I think I went for evening mass and I was on MC... Her baby Nazrul, if I remember correctly is 7months old.. and the father is not her husband.. I shall not comment anything about this, its not my place to say.. but what I wanna share is what she shared with me, about giving birth!! So interesting.. first hand account.. from a friend.. very, very painful as what is imagined, she says that when the water bag bursts everywhere is so bloody and wet.. in labour already so painful...and when the baby is coming out, its like naturally pushing itself out, so you have to push together.. and it feels like you are shitting.. hahaha... and once the baby comes out, you will be so tired.. but at the same time, you gotta push again to get the placenta out.. interestin haha.. seriously, coz my sis in law gave birth and all, my mom, to me, etc, but never talk about this with them.. so now I know lah ;)

Then after work, rushed home to get ready to go for Jackie's (cousin) wedding dinner... took taxi, reached about 7.30pm, but none of my family was there.. saw Uncle John, Jackie's father and my baptism godfather, but he didn't recognise me!! I smiled at him and then he approached me, shook my hand, and said, 'you are..' I was shocked.. haha.. coz he just saw me last Christmas.. so I said I'm Marie.. and then he was like, yah, yah, my god daughther!! Haha!! Later I recounted this to Angeline, one of my cousins, and she whispered saying that he's old.. haha.. which was what my mom said later too.. that he's 52.. and my mom said like him, she couldn't recognise Michael, his son, Jackie's bro.. haha...

Anyway, was real nice... Auntie Mimi, Theo (& gf)and Aaron sat at our table.. Theo introduced me to his gf, Tammy... said she was also from STC.. I asked when when she graduated, she said 2 years ago.. so she's really young, coz I graduated in '99... didn't really talk to them coz they sat at opposite sides of the table.. Patricia my niece, kept wanting to walk the whole time.. the moment she was carried she started to cry.. Jackie looked so pretty!! Jackie is already so pretty but with make -up even prettier.. and she wore all those off the shoulder gowns etc look so nice...saw a brief glimpse of Michael at the end, he's so tall now, with spiky dyed hair.. and before they all left, Sharon came and said hi and bye.. I told her we should meet up one of these days haha.. and she asked how old I was.. and when Johnathan left he also said bye, he asked me too, how was it, (about the RSI radio thingy) I said no response.. so, that was the end of the day!! Was a little tired, so decided not to meet the youth too.. which turned out to be a good thing, coz when I went home, I used that time to pray, and fell asleep early..

Yesterday went for 10am mass, and after mass, saw Natasha...and then talked with her for a while, about jobs.. quite good lah, she was giving me advice and all. then after that it was guitar time!! Whooppee doop, I'm so happy.. Jock taught me how to play "Here I am to Worship"... its such a nice song.. and part of me is so happy because, the cheem difficult stretching chords like C#m, Bsus, I can do it!! Yup yup.. maybe from practice.. it gets easier each time.. so happy... next I wanna learn "Days of Elijah" which is my favourite song right now. Anyway, after that hung out at the coffeeshop, so I went straight to work coz I started work at 5pm.. and I didn't bring my uniform, and everyone was saying so pretty so nice... haha.. dun know why, coz I always wear that pair of jeans.. maybe it was my top.. but a blouse can't just transform you right? Oh yeah, maybe also coz I was wearing contact lenses at the same time.. haha...and then also very happy.. see, there was thsi promoter for Energizer Battery... whereby if you buy $8 worth of batteries or shavers, you get a free spin on a wheel.. the best prize was an inflatable sofa, follwed by T-shirt, followed by magnet and mini pocket fan. Lotsa pple (staff) wanted the sofa.. so did I.. so I asked her and she said Sun was the last day, and if I bought some batteries she might help me.. at first I didn't see her, but later I did.. and she gave the display sofa to another staff.. so I decided to approach her and ask, she said I had to buy something, so I said, AAbattery can? Which was $2.90..(actually minumum was $8 for a spin) haha.. she was so nice she said okay, so I got myself a cute inflatable Energizer sofa!! :D And then today.. woke up, could not get up.. whole body aching.. haha... decided to take MC.. but the thing was, I called once at 10something (start work at 11), no one answered.. so I decided to sms Letchumi... then I offed my hp and went to sleep.. when I on it back at 5pm, found out I got a lot of missed calls from her, and she said that Fong (supervisor) was grumbling away, and what was worse, somebody from HQ came down to interview me!! About the PR job!! Yikes.. so there was I, contemplating, saying nvm, I waited so long already I don't care, when Letchumi called me, and gave me all the details... said that she overheard them talking.. the manager boss Mr Tay and the lady from HQ... and that Fong told them I didn't turn up!! Yikety Yikes.. she told me I better call and say I tried calling earlier and then fell asleep... so I did.. Fong grumbled a bit.. said cannot be no one answered, said that somebody not supposed to work, came to work, but she told them to go home because she thought I was coming.. yikety yikes... but after that she softened and told me to come earlier on wed, (coz tomorow I off), about 10.30am, coz the person wants to interview me!! Whoohoo.. I didn't exactly did a good thing, but I'm getting a good thing, the interview I've waited for ages..lucky lucky me.. but hmm.. dunno leh.. always got something crop up one.. maybe Wed she won't be there.. haha... Wed I shall update you again.. then just now, went doctor, almost couldn't get MC.. luckily in the end the doc softened too and gave me.. phew.. *wipes sweat off brow, literally* and then he started talking to me about jobs too.. for 10minutes plus I think? Coz they were gonna close already and I guess no other patients.. okay now, 9pm, think I'll be going to watch some TV... tomorow my off day.. most probably gonna be staying at home to rest.. still kinda beat.. then Wed go back to work will be recharged.. cooked just now!! hehe... see ya,God bless,love, Marie

Broody Ol' Me...

hey yo was sup. Just came back from P&W just now. Hey, its the youth group's 13th anniversary. wow. How has it evolved over the years. I made egg sandwiches which thank goodness all was finished and everybody seemed to like it. Haha. :P Made with TLC anyway.

Anyway, blogs blogs. Blogs help you know more about a person. So, if you're reading my blog, and happen to be a friend of mine, thats good.. you get to know me better... especially acquaintances, coz I don't really talk much. But if I say anything offending I'm sorry, its not like I mean to. Talk much.. hey I'm actally a very, VERY talkative person. I have no idea why sometimes I tend to be so quiet. Maybe in large groups. maybe with people I don't know well. Maybe I'm just shy, maybe I'm worried of saying something wrong. But I'm definitely not quiet!!! Hahah, I better do something about it. I wish I could be the kind of person that just makes everyone laugh!! or, whom eevryone wants to talk to.. or look up to... but I'm not.. I'm just the silent brooder... silently obeserving my surroundings.. but not observing enough.. thats really gotta change.. Holy Spirit, please help me...

you know, been reflecting about relationships... what a sensitive thing.. especially BGR ones.. its like everyone tends to be hurt at some point in time, oh well, and I still wanna know what love really is.. like one of the intercessory prayers lifted up today.. do I know what it is or is it to me, just the good times??? Hmm, hmm. I've been thinking, maybe its not the influences in your life that makes you bad.. its you.. I mean, true, you tend to be influenced by people, and you should hang out with good people... but, you should be a strong person yourself.. and prevent yourself from getting influenced... I have yet to reach that stage.. and until I do, I think I better stay away from the bad stuff/pple. Hahaha. Sometimes it's nice to have the special someone, but other times, it doesnt matter at all. Like, you can be totally happy living a full life with good friends, family and with God in your life. Which is how I feel most of the time. Only a teensy weensy part of me, when I have nothing else better to think about, when I'm half asleep, woozy and all, then I wish that I had a special someone. Hmm.

The other day, yesterday, did not go cyling in the end. Met Sihan at Marine Parade library, and walked in to East Coast, but we got in at the wrong side, and we walked for an hour or so, just talking. When we finally reached the bicycle shop, Seb msged to say that he could meet earlier. So we went off to meet Seb at Bugis. Talking about Seb, really wanted to lift him up at intercessory today but didn't get a chance. Lifted him up in my heart. Anyway, Seb brought us to his auntie's shop at Selegie... Yoga!! Anyone interested in yoga? I've got mixed feelings.. wouldn't mind learning with friends but self-interest I'm not so sure.. hmm, maybe taekwondo or karate? Hehee... I also have no idea if 'd have enough money to learn to ride motorbike.. even if I get my pay.. coz this month I did not pay my bills.. which brings forward to the next.. which means, next month prob $250...I really really wanna sign up but i gotta think rationally and not rashly.. ...we'll see when I get my pay.. I think, riding can always be delayed for a while.. meantime, I'll just cycle.. and I can always learn a bit from Jock... but I'm really serious about it.. haha.. it all boils down to the job thingy!!

Tomorow work 10am to5pm. Sianz. 12.42am now. Cannot join the guys for basketball. Not that I am that good in it anyway, but still it'll be fun. Besides I always love basketball.. nvm, I'm sure there'll be plenty of future opportunities. Hey, Jock said he met Sharon (my cousin) just now. Cool. Wish I was close to my cousins. Seems like I'm not that close to any of my cousins, except maybe Johnathan as of late but he's pretty busy with work. Sigh. really envy (whoops, envy is a sin man! haha) Jock, Dennis, Fab.. and Nick, Francis, Isaac, etc etc.. family including cousins all go to the same church, get along great.. my cousins all stay so far... oh yeah, except for Theo & Aaron! Hey saw them last week in church sun 6pm mass... but they dissappeared after that.. hmm.. oh well...

Marie signing off liao...so hot now that my fan is spoilt... sleeping in heat man.. every night gotta fan myself (paper fan) myself to sleep.. somemore June, hottest month.. buay tahan.. nvm, maybe this heat.. will make me into one hot babe... hahaha.. lame joke, yes I know. Ciao. Good night. God bless,Love,Marie

Soul Searching...

Hi..haven't written for a couple of days.. nothing much to say.. but guess today I'll just say a few stuff...

Just talked to Seb..for those who don't know, Seb is my very very good friend, I can say, even best friend, from poly.. right from the first day.. orientation in fact... we clicked... and since then, we've been pretty good buddies.. well, after we graduated he has to do his NS.. and 3 months back he got posted to Thailand... anyway, he was back on 14th June.. if you read my other post you'd knew about it.. well I talked to him for about 2 hours or so on the phone.. coz you know, when you're away for so long, out of the country some more, lotsa things happen.. feel very sad that Seb had to experience what he did in Thailand.. and am praying very hard that he gets to stay here.. coz if not, he has to go back there for one year...yeah lah, its just so heart pain.. but what I'm wondering is, how come I feel that way with Seb, and not with my other friend... he was kinda like my best friend too.. but instead, all I ever do is get angry, or frustrated when I talk to him.. I don't seem to care about his feelings.. and I think what he feels is fake... and I, being so heartless, deleted his testimonial.. which was actually very sweet and true about me.. but I just blocked that out from my mind and deleted it away.. what is love seriously... coz I don't seem to know the word or show it very much... arrggghh... its really terrible... me that is... I can't seem to do things right.. I don't know the meaning of love... the value of it.. and all I ever do, is make my heart heavy... and hurt some people around me...and in doing so, hurting God... sigh. :(

This sat is my cousin's Jackie's wedding.. so exciting, only thing is I'll be missing it.. coz I work until 5pm and the church wedding is at 2pm.. arrgghh... I can only make it for the dinner, but aiyah, I dun know how.. Jackie is only 1 year older than me.. 23!! And she's getting married!! Wow. But am so happy for her. She was and still is one of my closest cousins. Her parents being my baptism godparents, every year Christmas they would visit us without fail and I always have fond memories of us as kids, we would play hide and seek around my house, hiding in the foldable cupboard etc hehe... and 4 years ago she was just talking about boyfriends with me.. and then last year, suddenly she brought her bf to my 21st bdae.. and then, now, she's married.. wow... its like, so grown up.. so mature.. hope she doesnt forget me haha. But usually the grown-ups/married pple tend to hang out together... I dun know.. hehe. This cousin of mine is really petite, pretty, and so hardworking and smart. I remember, her O levels she had all As.. could have gone to a top JC.. but she knew her vocation.. so she chose to go to poly and do nursing.. and she was top in that course too, I remember, she even appeared in the newspapers for a project she did. Really admire her.

Anyway, tomorow I'm going to go cycling again!! Yayy.. Sihan will be my khaki this time. Am going to cycle on a mountain bike this time, to prepare myself for motorbike reality. Just hope I can catch up with Sihan!! Haha.. and hopr I can wake up.. most importantly.. I'm so lazy.. and after that gonna meet Seb.. you know, its good to have him back.. kinda really felt as though my friends were all so far away.. but just imagine how it must have been for him.. away from family even...anyway, I'm going off now... mind blank... take care yah, God bless, love,Marie

lamentations...

well... I'll just jump right in and say this.. remember yesterday I was saying.. that you gotta hang with the good people if you wanna be good... that means, you gotta ditch the bad... not that they are really bad.. but in the sense that, if you know yourself that if you hang out with them or talk to them you will easily be influenced and easily swayed.. I think thats what I gotta do.. sometimes, you really want to do good... or try to be nice.. but its so hard... so you have to ditch that person... else you'll be prone to sin.. I dunno, thats how I feel leh.. like, when I'm not in contact with such a person, everything is nice and fine, everything is good and happy, but once I get into contact, the goodness deserts me.. and I'm so easily prone to be bad... I'm sure if you're reading this you have no idea what I'm talking about hahaha...

Anyway.. talking to a good person.. is just so nice!! Especially when Jesus is with that person. Talked to such a person just now, even though it was for a little while, but the moment I did, it was so nice and peaceful, it was just wonderful. I just have to be like the person. As soon as I finish this I'm gonna pray and have some praise, coz I'm not feeling right, right now. Bothered. Arrggh.

Anyway, am also very broke right now. I haven't paid my $150 hp/net bill and I'm down to about $50 bucks left to last me till July 4th. I've got to do some serious disciplining of myself.. else, things are gonna turn bad.. okay, can't wait to talk to God and then I'm sure I'll feel better, Catcha tomorow, God bless, Love, Marie

Holy Spirit.. fall on me...

http://www.catholiceducation.org/articles/religion/re0451.htmlhttp://www.ewtn.com/Devotionals/pentecost/seven.htmFantastic... the gifts of the Holy Spirit... don't get me wrong, they're not for worldly pleasures.. but instead, help you to do everything right.. help you to build your loving relationship with God..You know one of the most important things that I wanna learn about the guitar is that I gotta learn how to tune it!! Else i won't be able to play.. coz my guitar always goes out of tune.. maybe I'l buy a tuner...

You know the thing about blogs is, that you write down your thoughts.. its almost like you're talking to someone.. someone close.. so the things is, if the wrong person reads it then, ahah... well, it is not meant for them.. and guess that they just gotta take it in their stride.. like the things you say.. are not purposely meant for them to read.. they are merely your thoughts, know what I mean?

Anyway, I wonder what are the gifts of the Holy Spirit for me.. I mean, my gift.. what God wwants me to do.. like I know what are some people's.. its just so clearly obvious.. but I still don't know whats mine... I'm still the same old person, just that I'm trying to be better... hmm... and I must mention, that there are 2 people whom I have the most respect for right now.. 2 of my friends, from the youth.. and they are Francis.. and Jock.. seriously.. I mean, I'm not soo close to them, but what I've found out is, they're always smiling, always welcoming, always full of patience, and always have a good word to say about everybody.. and calm too!! Me, I'm prone to getting hyper.. I'm not calm.. patience, I'm working on it.. still a bit hot-tempered...and I tend to assume things about a person... really have alot to learn from these two... its like, the people you hang out with, will influence you right? Birds of a feather flock together... haha..so hope that I can learn from them a thing or two.. no wonder they were and are leaders.. and very good ones at that.. I thank you God, for letting me know them...

Yawwnn

11.21am... Yawwn... haiz.. woke up on the dot of 11am.. when I was supposed to start work at 11am.. thought I can rush and get there by 11.30am... then dunno what made me decide not to go and take MC...since my money situation not very good too... haiz.. maybe it was Nisha (my colleaugue).. she was not feeling well a day during this week, so she decided tot ake MC... but she never go doctor coz she still has left over medicine.. so dunno how for her... but I just called workplace... horrors of horrors, the fierce supervisor answered... the one who grumble about my off days.. but surprisingly she wasn't scolding... I have to take MC though... haiz.. somemore my family doctor close already.. gotta go to another one... haiz... will leave this for later...

Yesterday I saw my nephew and niece... so happy... I talked to Philip on the phone first, he was so chatty!! He made me change my mind about not meeting them, coz at first I made other plans.. poor boy, he was so tired he didn't sleep the whole day that in the car ride back he was wailing. Tricia is so cute too, now she's 11 months old, she can walk already and has a bit of teeth.. hehe... I'm special to Phlip.. coz he calls me Tita (Auntie in Tagalog) Marie only.. he doesn't call my sister Tita Cynthia, he calls her Auntie Cynthia... but I think he prefers my sister.. maybe coz he thinks he can bully here? Haha, I dunno, or maybe I don't know how to handle kids/babies that well... hmm.. maybe I should go for the pre-school cert course.. hahaha

And then after that, to Francis place I went... although there was nothing much to do.. and the only thing that was fun was, guitar!! Yup yup... gonna practise more and really hope I get better... I would just love to be able to play all the songs I like and then have my own personal praise session to God, like I mentioned before :DOkay lah.. since today I'm at home, supposedly on MC, (until I get it), I've really got lotsa things to do.. unless I forgo doing them and go back to sleep.. hahaha.. but thats's the point of MCs right, to catch up on rest?? Haha... ok, well, I'm still pretty tired... will get back to you later..God bless, Love, Marie

Bikes!!!!

Fantastic man today.. actually now, 3.06am, gotta sleep coz wont be able to get up at 9am for tomorow's work, but I've gotta pen down what happened today...First of all, praise... was really looking forward to it and it was pretty wonderful.. songs basically the same as the camp, but what was wonderful was, God!! Yep. Its funny, when you want to become closer to God, when you desire for him and allow him to work in your life, the feeling is tremendous, I don't know how to describe.. for example, I was feeling kinda 'dry', how do you call it.. like, I wanted to be in the mood for/and praise, but couldn't give my all.. so I decided to pray silently... and then suddenly, I felt him!! I mean, I just did.. felt him there.. felt his presence.. felt his love... felt him listening to me.. was simply great... and when you feel the need to do something, you just gotta do it... like I felt the need to kneel, but was to conscious.. when I finally knelt, and followed my heart, it just was great!! Like, something was missing until I did it... also something wonderful was, this past week I kept singing the song... "I love you Lord, and I lift my voice..." whenever I was alone around the house, it just cAme to me coz I love him... and then, I suddenly realised that they were singing the very same song during praise!! What a wonderful coincidence. Only thing was I think I gotta get over my 'on the spot nervousness'.. like when asked to do things on the spot my mind races to think but goes blank instead... still, I managed to give thanksgiving for the very thing I wanted to give thanks for... and that was, getting closer to God...

After praise, I got more than I wanted... was planning to ask Jock already about riding, but I got more than that.. I got to sit on it, and my first lesson, lifting the bike or something!! I think I can really do it.. next week on my off day I'm gonna go cycling again to get the balance and practise... then I'm gonna try again on the motorbike if Jock lets me.. and then next month I'm seriously gonna sign up for lessons. My only gripe is, once again, that I may not have enough money.. like I think one shot is $200 ... and that would be half of my pay... and $100 goes to the bank loan.. which means I only have $100 left to survive on neccessaties... yikes.. but once I get my mind on something I have to do it.. like the lenses... so very soon yeah!! :D :D Happy happy happy...

Then went to Zion Road and tasted mushroom and cheese prata for the first time!!! Deeeelicious. But, $2.50!!! Heart pain. Even the cheese prata 30cents more than other places. I think next time I will just drink teh. And didn't have the heart to tell Vincent I'm not interested in insurance.. and he said it was not his company who called me yesterday!! So wierd... see this is what happens... you should never assume... but it was so wierd that I gave my particulars away and on that very same day, 2 hours later, got a call frm another company.. come to think of it the fella never intro himself.. grrr... nvm, if he calls again, muahhahaha.... and then, played pool for the second time!! Whoppeee... think I can do much better on my third time provided I practise.. and there's so much more I wanna do on my agenda... but thats what makes me happy.. living a full life man... okok, now 3.20am.. time to sleep, else cannot wake up tomorow and will have ugly owl's eyes... I always kena eyebags, not fair... okay, have a good weekend yah?

God bless, Love Mariep.s. disregard the typos/spelling errors.. i too tired to check already.. hehe :)

The thinking gal...

12.52am.. I'm bored to death right now.. waiting till 1.30am to watch 'Angel' on StarWorld..Today didn't do much.. after work, went for mass.. and saw some of the confirmation kids there... one clique.. kinda cool, its great to see them so 'on'... and I think they've been going everyday since Mon..just after the camp!!! on Mon I only saw Ivan, but I think after that they decided to meet up.. looking forward to tomorow's praise!! :D :D

After they left I got caught by Vincent.. for insurance!!! At last I also kena. Actually, he said to help him do a survey..he said don't have to do anything, buy or anything... and after looking at the form, I thought it was fishy... asked for details like add, date of birth.. part of me wanted to say no.. another part of me decided to just carry on and be nice... but after that there were more questions.. like how much income you get, how you spend your money, etc etc... luckily I am only working part time right now.. but Vincent seemed surprised that I'm past 21, and still not working full time..

you know what, I don't care and I'm not gonna be pressured.. I mean, sure I am looking for a full time job but I don't owe anyone any explainations or need anyone to push me to get one soon... anyway, like I said, luckily I only working part time so I filled up only a bit of the form.. then he left.. 2 hours later, while I was at macs, got a missed call.. then that very same number called me while I was shopping at NTUC.. and asked for 'Theresa'... haha, you betcha I got irritated.. my name is 'Marie', and as for 'Therese', its not 'Theresa'!! I always get irritated by people who address me like that... (haha, temperemental me...) unless I like you lah of course... but this fella.. started asking so many questions.. on my hp somemore, not cheap... and what i told him not enough.. like he ask what sector working, I said retail, not enough, have to know exactly what, and have to know which place.. I told him I'm not interested right now, besides only part-time.. (actually, full time also I wont be interested)... the thing was, I never gave my handphone number.. there was a section asking for email/contacts and I only put email.. Vincent must have asked someone... grrr... nothing against Vincent, but I think tomorow or when I next see him, I have to tell him straight, not interested!! Or its gonna bother me to no end.. I always like to think uneccesarily..worry uneccessarily... I was thinking right, what do others think my role was at the confirmation camp.. but you know what, I'm not gonna be bothered by what others think.. coz I gave my best.. I may still be a little too quiet for some.. but with the Holy Spirit working in my life more, 'quiet' will be a word of history in my books... and anyway, back to insurance, even when I get a full time 1k over job, will never be interested.. so sorry, as a friend I can't help you this way.. maybe other ways.. and hopefully I don't keep getting calls from them or emails!!

Anyway, later went to do my favourite past time, shopping!! Hahaha, at NTUC.. hey I shouldn't have gone to Jack's Place yesterday.. like I said, the calories that I burnt cycling went down the drain, and instead I gained more fats :( :( oh well.. as a result I bought some 99% fat free soups (quite delicious.. Batchelor brand I think) but I think I gotta really really excercise...hey Mother Earth's muesli bars are also quite nice.. I used to buy Uncle Toby's, but Mother Earth's are just as tasty and cheaper..

and I can't get my mind off motorbikes right now.. keep thinking of getting my license and all... really hope I'll be able to do it.. so very soon yeah *huge grin* my hairstyle is also damn ugly right now... but I cannot cut it coz I want to grow it long...and once more, I have to reinstate that I am extremely broke!!! Sigh. Wish I had a digi cam right now. I love taking pictures.. yes of myself as well haha, the thing is, I don't always look my best thats why I appear to be camera shy... I cant connect my hp to my pc if not I could transfer the pics I took to my pc... and also, I dunno whats with my pc, both my printer and scanner is jammed... and I don't wanna have them fixed.. yet.. coz I don't know how much they cost and dun know where.. which reminds me, gotta change my school projects on video tape and dics to cds.. coz Seb said he found out his got fungus.. I'll be in pain man if I lost mine... there's this demo tape on video that I made especially for an assignment all by myself, and I really hope its still intact.. which reminds me, I have yet to take my 21st birthday tape from my bro's place!! anyway, back to the story, yeah one day.. when I have lotsa money, I'll get a cam.. well, I've run out of things to say already.. really looking forward to tomorow.. btw my arms and neck and backside hurt from cycling!! hahahah... well I'll cya my friend, God bless, love,Marie

Great Day!!!

My dream, well, one of my dreams came true today, I finally went cycling!! Yup yup!!Firstly, met Seb after a whole long 3 months!! Simply fantastic. He's slightly tanner, and he has muscles now!! Yup, the kind where you don't even have to flex, they show when you move.. wow, phweeweet.. haha... Met him at Plaza Sing, where we sat at Macs and caught up. He bought me this handkerchief full of smiley faces, coz he said he wants me to be always happy, with the colour purple, my favourite colour, and with my full name 'Marie Therese Anthony' embroidered on it. So sweet!! You know, its great having him back, even though he is only here for 2 weeks.. its not that I thought he forgot about me, but was getting kinda lonely over here... with him in Thai, Karen in Aussie... Mich in Japan.. and those over here, too busy to make time...when I least expected it, he came back.. what a boost to my life! :D

He showed me the photos he took, and the photo that we took at the airport on the day he left was indeed nice as he said. Hopefully I can have it scanned and put it on friendster. It was fantastic catching up... like old times..!! In fact, used to take old times for granted.. at that point in time... like in school, everyday used to see each other, just thought it would happen forever. I'm so happy that Seb managed to come back at this time, since Fri is his 21st birthday. Sigh. Hope to meet up with him at least one more time before he goes back. And then, the next time he comes back will be in Feb next year.

Then after that met Letchmi, and we went cycling!!! Whoohooo... been wanting to do that for ages but cannot find khaki.. We had to put $50 deposit for each bike tho, coz she didn't bring her IC and I lost mine long time ago.. wow... and at first, had to get the hang of cycling again, coz it had been 3 years since I last cycled...but once I did was fantastic... like a great workout... my only gripe was, the bike I had was quite slow in speed... and, on my way out earlier, my shoe's heel broke :( :( and I just got this pair of shoes less than 3 months ago from Bestway.. and Bestway is no more.. and I love this pair of shoes... something like court shoes.. coz to get it from elsewhere like Bata is more expensive... and this is the second time a similar pair of shoes of mine had the heel coming out... sigh.. oh well...

After the 2 hours plus of cycling, couldn't decide where to go to makan, so Letchmi suggested Jack's Place, and she said she'd treat me, coz it was definitely expensive, and I didn't have much money... in the end I just gave her back $10... the bill was abt $50... couldn't let her pay the whole thing, and at the same time, couldn't afford to pay half.. oh well, what a dinner.. all the calories burnt while cycling went down the drain!!! Hahahaha.. I ate catfish and sirloin steak... catfish tasteless lah.. sirloin quite nice...had a baked patato too... we had alot of fun laughing... and I was playing around, trying to see if the guy's steak at the next table was well done, to compare it with mine, in case mine was not, and trying to sneak glances without him noticing, and I almost burnt my hand coz I was concentrating so much on cutting my potato that i didn't realise my hand was near the candle flame, and I had a time wrestling with cutting the piece of meat... reflecting on it, I think I can be pretty funny with the right people, and I like to make people laugh... by making a fool out of myself of course... haha.. so I guess, only close friends get to see that side of me, although I am trying to open up more

Talking to Seb about it.. made me realise.. that compatibility is very important.. well, sort of.. true, opposites attract and sort of complement each other, but you need some similarities to maintain...Let me list out stuff that might make it difficult to work...lets say, if you are interested in a relationship with me?? hahaha....

*I love clubbing and staying out late (thus, if you stay nearby it would be great)*I'm a movie buff!! Love going to the movies...
*I like trying out new things.. and maintaining things that I've tried but not so good.. like cycling, pool, bowling and many more other stuff... so it helps that you like to do these stuff together with me, or, at least, have some knowledge about it hahaha...
*I like window shopping!! Which means, I like going around shopping centres/supermarkets, just walking around the whole place, to see see, so you may be bored and not like it...
*I like going to new eateries and trying them out, eating good food... (which reminds me, can't wait for Karen to come back in July so we can window shop, eat food, movies, etc... haha! Miss her too)
*Erm, I guess you have to share the same religion as me... in the past, I thought it didn't matter, as long as you were not a Muslim,coz of the conversion part, no offense, but after experiencing it, being with a non-Catholic, I realise that, I would not have anyone except a Catholic.. thats just me.. I'm not so strong in my faith.. am just only getting it built up and on track right now, so I really need someone of the same faith.. also, thinking about the future and all, it's gonna be difficult to work out if you're not of the same faith... hahaha..

I seem to have it all thought out huh.. but then again, who's to say that that may all change when you fall in love... coz with love, it doesnt matter.. love conquers all right? ;)Anyway, I can't seem to get someone out of my mind right now.. yeah, this is the very first time I'm admitting this.. ooooo... yeah yeah, someone has creeped his way into my heart...someone who lights me up whenever I see him, or think of him... someone, who is just so totally wonderful.. and I can go on and on, but I might give myself away, and we wouldn't want that now, would we? And I think, he is perfect for me.. but then again, he may not think that I am perfect for him.. oh well...and I havent gotten anything from God when I pray about it... except, that, to take this slow.. and I hope, that it will work out.. hehe... :) Its definitely not a crush, but hasn't fully turned into love yet anyway.. we'll see... :)

Well, wish you all the best wit your loves :)Take care, God bless,Love,Marie

The Hardest Thing....

THE HARDEST THING

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

Chorus:
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion When you start to cry
I can't let you see What you mean to me
When my hands are tied And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away Pretending I don't love you

I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
There can be no happy ending

Chorus

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
(Ooh)
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

Chorus

I don't want to live a lie
What can I do

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The Aftermath.....
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The hardest thing I'd ever had to do...
Is to look you in the eye, and tell you I don't want this
The hardest thing I'd ever had to say
Was that we are not meant for each other right from that dayT
he hardest thing I'd ever had to lie
Was to say that we might be together someday, sometime
Baby you deserve better than this
So please let your mind think and not let your heart get pissed....:(
Sigh... its so easy.. to just turn around, and say,
I'd want you back...
Its so easy... to be in your arms again, to feel your embrace
But what my head is wanting, my heart is struggling..
I'd never had to be more strong willed in my entire life
And yet it still cuts like a knife..

But I know I'm gonna be alright
And believe it or not, you will be too
A little bit of short term pain
Reseulting in maturity and true happiness gained
Will do better good
Than short term bliss
With long term suffering in the pits
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Today went to see Harry Potter again! Lol, this time was fully awake and managed to enjoy the movie. Oh yeah, forgot to mention that yesterday, finally the boss - the manager - Mr Tay - got reminded of me, and spoke to me again.. seems the HR job is no longer available, coz the person who quit wanted to come back.. so whats left is a chief cashier job.. only thing is, I have to wait another week and then get back to him, and there is 2 rounds of interview... plus shift work and all that... but I still very much want to be active in church... dunno how, maybe I'll call the agency? Haha... my career has become secondary this past few weeks.. too occupied..

Have yet to see Troy... dunno if I'll ever see it.. I might as well watch it alone, but it ends past midnight and I don't wanna sit alone on the cab back... so we'll see how.. also another thing I have to get clear... if you think I'm rich, I'm most certainly not... you may be 'richer' than me... I only get about $400 a month? And immediately, $100 goes to the bank for my poly loan, another $100-150 for my handphone and internet bill, which remains only about $200, which when you think about it, how to survive? Transport, food, sundries, etc.. I barely survive till the end of the month, sometimes even taking 'loans' from my mom... so do not think that I'm rich, just because I seem to be extra generous, or, go to more than a couple of movies. Thank you... and yes, next time I will be more firm...if I dont want to do something (that might make me spend money unnecessarily) I am going to say no, and not yes just so that I can be part of the group, or liked by you. Thank you for your kind understanding. Haha!

Oh yeah, the other day got pillion ride from church to TB from Jock.. pretty cool.. was kinda scared at first, considering I only went once 3 years back, and that time, dunno why I was scared? But this time was really shiok!!! Felt comfortable and yeah, actually didn't have to hold on.. although I thought better not be too smart alecky and take my arm away from the support.. haha :PWhich brings me to the topic, I really hope tomorow I can go cycling!!! Tomorow I'm going to meet Sebastian!! Yayyy... in the morning, boy, we sure have lots to catch up, then after that, with Letchmi, and thats when I hope we can go cycling. Really need to excercise, cycling would be good, also, cycling is one step away for me to learn how to ride :D :DAnd if I can get contacts (I was very scared at first) I sure can learn how to ride.. whoopee...Till that day, cheers... and God Bless always.

Love,Marie

I'm in Love...:D

Yes I am, yes I am, with God!! Its just so wonderful. The whole of today, I was just in pure bliss... even Letchumi (Michelle) said she could see I enjoyed the camp coz I was GLOWING!!! How great is that!! Wanting to go for mass, even became even more wonderful, coz I was going to spend time and see the lover of my soul, Jesus. Unfortunately, after that things soured a bit. I guess things happen, and although now I'm finally calmer, able to think more straight, I will not be better until you know what and even then I guess, the scars remain. I think I'm not praying enough. Okay Marie, after this, its more prayer time!!

Anyway, wanna share a bit about the camp. Especially the third night, 11th June, Confession night... power man, the praise was just like the Leader's Camp praise, maybe even better!! I remember, after one song was done, and they put another, I thought to myself, 'wow, the songs just keep getting better and better and its great coz I just wanna praise you more Lord!' I think the pinnacle was when we all stood up in praise of The Lord. I was definitely touched by the Spirit, I was so happy, grinning from ear to ear, until my happiness turned into laughter!! Yup. And I wasn't laughing at anyone, I was just laughing out of joy. It was wonderful, I just could have boxed myself coz I tried to suppress it. Shouldn't have. Then my laughter turned into a teardrop or so, and then I could sing again. And although I wanted it to last forever, it came to the point in time when you just knew, it was time to stop. And the next day Bro Emmanuel from the Brothers of St. Gabriel (he was good.. I rem some of his stuff frm last yr), shared with us about the Youth In The Spirit Seminar that had the Holy Spirit moving among them too on the very same night as ours! Fantastic! :D

You know, I've got people telling me recently that I'm quiet...

9.45PM...Just got off the phone with Sebastian!! yeah, he is back!! I heard my room phone ring and wondered who it was, coz not many people call my direct line, and when I heard the voice, 'Hello, can I speak to Marie' I started SCREAMING AND SQEALING FOR JOY!!!! :D :D :D I'm still so excited right now I can't contain myself.... would you belive it, from terrible sadness, to incredible joy in an instant..!! And all because of God!!! Whoohooo.... Seb said he will sms me... he's only got 2 weeks.. 27th June he is flying off to Thailand again where he is spending his NS... oh my... and his birthday is this Fri!!! And I'm gonna meet him this Wednesday, coz its my only off day this week!! Only got tomorow to buy him something!! Whoohooo!!! Just when I thought my friends were so far away!!! Hah!!! :D :D :D

11.45pm... Okay, I just sorta 'talked' to him online... was a huge mistake... everything was okay at first... until he started becoming bitter and angry... sigh... how did it happen coz I asked his friend how he was, and then amazingly he asked me if I wanna talk... so met him online, and then, bitterness....sigh... big mistake... when will I ever learn.. :(

Oh yeah, I wanna talk about the movie I watched yesterday, The Punisher... its quite star studded and I didn't even realise it!! Like Rebecca Romijn-Stamos.... she of Mystique - X-Men fame... and Kevin Nash too!! Kevin Nash... of N.W.O.... formerly known as Diesel.. from Wrestling... no wonder, I thought that guy must be a wrestler, coz he was so big.. but it was very difficult to recognise him.. oh well...

Oh yeah, and where was I when I left off? The quietness part. Yeah, even got an annonymous mail from someone during confirmation camp telling me not to be so quiet. The thing is, I'm not! Just ask my mom, Seb, Selven even, or just observe me.. I'm definitely not..I'm one of the most chattiest chatterboxes ever, talking even nonsense at times.. I always have something to say, I from whatever happen at school (last time) to work... I guess its just the company of people that I'm with.. like, when I'm with a bigger group I tend to be more quiet... coz can get overshadowed at times, and maybe better at talking one on one.. Also, it depends on the person... sometimes, if I feel that I can't click with the person, my mind just goes a blank... :S ... and also, maybe, as to why I was quiet, at least in the past, is because, I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing..like afraid of offending people, and it has happened before... I guess, I'm temperamental.. thats what Seb told me just now, in the short space of time we talked, coz I told him that I told one of my friends straight, that I gave up trying to keep in touch with her... hahahah... oh well, thats me... I can be a bit blunt at times, without meaning too, and let my mouth shoot without really thinking sometimes... but, back to the picture of being quiet, I'm not really, so if you think I am, just try talking to me more, and you'll see :)

Thats it for today. I still don't feel very good... like there's a weight on my heart.. I hope that will be fixed... very soon... take care, and God bless,

Love,Marie

Sober?

Okay, I'm more calm now, I know what I have to do.. make peace with the person and with God.. in fact, I've always known it... just that I'm so damn disappointed with myself for letting him down... when I tried my darnest, when I really wanted to be good and not sin... but I have to remember that I'm only human.. and that the very essense of God is forgiveness and love... and that I am his child and that he will forgive me and take me back in an instant... I still feel like shit about it.. right now.. I guess everything will be all better after Confession... but the difficult part is not to sin.. if you're reading this please help me and pray for me...

Nunhood...

Its not fair... I was so happy... I was and am still in love... with none other than God... but I broke his heart again... I wonder why these things happen... I try my best, but is it not enough? Its so painful I feel like dying... I feel like all is lost... I'm only human I guess... but it is possible not to sin is it not? I think I will join the religious and become a nun.. a secluded nun better... maybe the Carmelites...that way I can avoid human contact, thus avoiding sin and devote myself to God...I feel terrible.. God please help me.. don't leave me... this is the last thing I had wanted to do...

Whoohoo!!!

Whoohoo!!!

Confirmation camp ended yesterday…. And I reached home around 3, slept close to 4am, and woke up today, close to 5pm :P…. slept the whole day away, haha… catching up on sleep lah… yesterday went to watch Harry Potter, but slept throughout the movie :S couldn’t keep my eyes open… a waste of my money… oh well…

The camp was simply great… so happy that I decided to go.. coz when I was first asked I said no… but was asked again… so it was like, I was meant to go…it was great getting to know the kids too.. each one of them is very special to me… its like when I look at them, they are very dear to me, and I just want the very best for them, including those that I didn’t get a chance to talk to, and I’m gonna keep praying for them. Talked to a lot of people whom I haven’t talked with before and can say got to know them better, which was nice :)

I can say that I’ve become close to the Holy Spirit of late… yah, in the past I was praying only to Jesus… and Mary occasionally… the Holy Spirit was just this ‘far away’ figure… like God the Father was to me… but its so fantastic having him ‘activated’ in my life right now…I don’t feel shy anymore… I sing at the top of my lungs :D coz I’m singing only for God, I’m able to praise God more, like the words just come!!! Its like, a couple of weeks ago, I didn't know who the Holy Spirit was... what he does, or how to pray to him.. but now I just know!! he's my comforter, my guide... he helps me to pray, helps me to do the right thing, helps me to be more open, to surrender myself to God... Jesus is my best friend, my lover, God is like, God Almighty, the Holy Spirit is my guide, my my comforter...its easier to be nicer, haha, like for example at work when you meet difficult people… I still get temptations though… like during the period of the leader’s camp and the confirmation camp…even kena a bad dream, and it was kinda difficult to pray the way I wanted too.. I even thought the Spirit had left me… but he doesn’t ever… and I guess I just have to face these doubts with more prayers… keep trying to do the right thing… and I will just get stronger and stronger :D Yayyy… The feeling of happiness, of being close to God, of having such a relationship with God is just so wonderful, I guess no words can describe it, I just feel it and its FANTASTIC its like, I want to scream for joy, let the whole world know about it, spread my joy to others and so many more things! :D

I think I’m getting better at guitar too… at least that’s what I think… its like I can get the hand of strumming a certain song… well just have to master the difficult chords, remember the chords for the songs, and I hope that I can play praise on my own… and have my own personal praise sessions to God… I think that would be great :D

You know, when I see people talking about their relationships, or observe people in them, I kinda feel nostalgic… how would you call that feeling? I don’t know how to describe it.. sad? Sentimental? Wistful? About mine… Its been a week since I last talked to him.. and even then he was asking to talk but I said no…

When I think about it, I feel sad… I guess that would be how you would feel anyway.. I’m not heart broken or a wreck like I think I was the first time, but I do feel sad that it had to be this way… when I think about it, sad… when I look at pictures, think of the good times… so cute together, etc… but I guess, a relationship is not about looking good together… and, I used to think that a relationship should last forever… really… like you should marry your first boyfriend.. haha… but I realised that that’s not how it should be… if you’re not meant for each other.. you should not just carry on just because you’ve already been together for so long….. or any other reasons… I guess, when it comes to the point where you’re hurting each other more than loving each other, its time to let go.. its like, all the signs were there… but, I was blind to see it, or didn’t want to see it, I do not know.. and now that the action has been done, its been about a month or so now, its like I’m more open to other things… making new friends, spending time doing other things…and seriously, I’m becoming closer to God right now… its like, everything is working out okay…like everything is happening for a reason…. like, the point in time when I wanted to let go, I had other people in my life that I knew I could depend on... when I felt lonely, God sent people to be there with me, (read my other post).. its like, God is making everything work out for me, like he has a plan for me, and its slowly come into place... I'm smiling right now, I just feel so happy, I just want to do God's will...so I’m okay… I only feel a little bit sad when I think about it at times… and I used to worry before… after my first… that I would never get married, never find another… but the funny thing is, I’m not worrying about it now… its like, I’m taking one day at a time, leaving it up to God.

Sigh… dunno what’s gonna happen next… like just now, felt tempted to sms him… like how are you that kinda thing… but I didn’t… whether we would get back together I do not know… meet up? Talk again? Sigh… he was my best friend… kinda… but I think I’m gonna be just fine…if I’m meant to be with him again, it would just happen… like right now, I just feel that I need this break...the feeling is just there... and I know, nothing bad will come out of it, so I know its the Holy Spirit guiding me... so I’ll just take things one day at a time, keep all the memories, let the Holy Spirit guide me in whatever I do, and I guess, things will be all right!! :D

Jesus, you are the lover of my soul… I will never let you go… I thank you so much for bringing me back to you… at a time when my faith was at its lowest… I thank you so very much for forgiving me of my sins, coming into my heart again, and giving me your grace. I thank you so much, for letting me know you more everyday… and its just so wonderful…. let me never doubt or falter, in my faith, in your unfailing love for me… Holy Spirit, I thank you for letting me know you.. I thank you, for letting me do things I’d never thought I would… please continue to guide me… lead me to do whats right always…and to love God always… Amen.

P.S. Just now watched ‘The Punisher’ with my mom…. So happy… thought we were going back after dinner (at Delifrance… ate the baked rice, nice but little) and some small shopping… we were at Tiong Bahru, the third storey, when I looked up and said there’s nothing there, lets go down, when my mom said, ‘got movie right’ or something like that… and when she sorta suggests something, I knew to jump at the opportunity…. Hehe… I knew she wanted to see…. so only The day After Tomorrow was free listed… saw that already… so we almost went back home, somemore my mom had to call her workplace quite late to find out her working time tomorrow… so I said nvm, can use my hp to call… so in the end we saw The Punisher… I guess, when my mom want to do something, its easier to get her to agree… you know what I mean? Ok, let me explain… like, lets say, if I want to go somewhere, and my mom says no immediately, she will be firm about it… but if she gives a hint that she doesn’t mind doing something, like watching a movie just now, better jump at the chance… hehe… somemore the last time I saw a movie with her was in August last year… Lara Croft the Tomb Raider….You know, its not like I stick to my mom… I know some people would say that and I get kinda irritated when they do.. I’m not a baby… I’m already 22… its just that I’m close to her, and I like doing things with her… and maybe, I’m still dependant on her for some things, like I always like to ask her opinion about things, to choose clothes (haha!) or accessories for me, etc, but not to that extent… and I think there’s nothing wrong with being close to your mom is there? Having dinner with your mom everyday is not like you’re sticking to her am I right? I just like spending time with her. And the more days the merrier. Hehe. Well, that’s it for today. I wish you to have a good week ahead, take care, God bless, Love, Marie

Vanakam

Today, back to work after the weekend off at camp.After work, hung out with Letchmi for a while, until my mom joined us, eating at KFC, and she put on the henna paint that I bought a few weeks back on my left hand. Beautiful!! Seems that you have to dab some oil (any oil, even cooking oil) onto the paint so that the ink will last longer. Now I'm a real Indian gal. Lol. Sort off. Must get a sari next, learn how to tie it, get rid of my stupid pimple outbreak, then I'll be my beautiful self again. Hehe. Oh, and also grow my hair long *huge grin*

Then went grocery shopping with mummy again at NTUC. Spent 40plus bucks this time. I don't know why but I love shopping. Grocery shopping, window shopping, yesterday I went clothes shopping. Oh yeah, accesory shopping too. Hehe ;) Of course, most of the time its window shopping coz these things cost lots of money which I do not have in abundance.

Was so happy, found out by reading my pay slip today that I had gotten staff discount! I mean, every staff has discount but I always thought that only confirmed staff do, thats what the newer staff used to tell me. Lukily I didn't listen to them and still used my IC for the rebate :D *huge grin*

Nice hanging out with Letchmi too. Yesterday can say we almost went mass together, just coz I was slightly late, I sat somewhere else until after communion time. We almost saw Harry Potter today too, but because I already asked my mom to meet up with me, then could not. I think God has answered my 'silent prayers'... somewhat... hehe... by sending me a friend like Letchmi, and keeping me occupied with stuff like the church camp etc. I'm so happy, he knows what I need and what, especially during this period... when I had to let go of something, the start of something else begins. You know the saying, 'The End is Only The Beginning' Praise to you Lord Jesus Christ, Thank you so much for everything. :D

Love, Marie

Powerful

Just came back from the leadership camp today that started on Fri. I kena my cramps today. Lukily was the last day of camp. So painful. Even with the panadol, the pain came off and on.

Anyway, there is just one thing I have to say.. and that was, on the second night of camp, the Praise we had was superbly wonderful! Powerful! Fantastic! Praise the Lord!!! I don't know... maybe it had to do (for me) with Confession just before it. But it was just the Lord's Spirit moving among us that night and it was just simply wonderful, I can't put it in words :)

Looking forward to the Confirmation Camp next. Two days to go... 9th June... take care and God bless,Love, Marie

Blur!!!

Hiyah today today. So many problems today. Today my first time OT, found out had to swipe the OT card when I was about to go home. Then the person in charge is off today, so I had to leave a note for her and remind her when I come back on Monday... sigh. Nobody told me about it.Then I still have the problem of Sat off... I asked for off days for the camp this Fri to Sun, but she planned me Sat to work. I have no idea why, maybe she forgot. The thing was she's on leave, will be back tomorow only, and after telling so many people I cannot work, tomorow I still have to call her to inform her (and don't know whether she will let me have off or not) and to remind her that the following week I asked for off days as well. She is sure to grumble. Sigh. I am definitely not looking forward to it. And the other day I sent my resume... without my contact numbers!!! I sent another one again with the details but it doesnt look that professional huh. Dunno whats wrong with me. Arrggghh!!!! I don't know if I will ever get a job!!!!!!!!!! And I don't want to quit this one coz I want the 10% discount still!!!! Hahhahaa!!! We'll see how things go. Sigh

Remember I said I've got lots to tell? Well let me catch up with you... yeah the other day... that Sat.. saw Shrek 2... was super duper happy... was jumping up and down and pratically screaming my head off with joy... and the last time I did that was probably when I had an 'A' grade for final speech for Speech Communication with aaron in Year 1, and that was like ages, means like in ages I was truly happy. And since last Sat, haven't been feeling that great either. Shrek was ok only. It was funny, at certain parts, but wasn't a super fantabulous movie. The following day, sunday, after mass, went with my mom to Serangoon Road Little India coz we didn't know what to eat. We went to Komala Villas, and I ate Masala Thosai, which was delicious!!!! Much better and cheaper than Brindas over at Bukit Merah. The service was good too, restaurant style, where they serve you, the guy was very attentive, and I got as much coconut as I wanted... which was my favourite :)

Then I really wanted to thread my eyebrows, so we walked around a bit, but most of the beauty shops were closed. I almost did henna painting on my hand, for 5 bucks, but then decided against it as at work they might complain, also, I could save some money... I bought the henna ink itself for just 2dollars. Guess I'll just apply it myself. Then I also bought the potai. Nice fasionable ones. Oh yeah, Sun I also woke up late, as usual. Decided not to go to work as was 8plus, supposed to work at 8am,so went to doctors, and took 2 days MC, for Monday as well, which meant I could see the movie that I won, Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen!!!

So Monday, 24th May, sleeping as usual in the late morning, when Letchmi called me, asked me to go out. So I said ok. Met her at Singtel Hello Shp as she wanted to change her hp number, but in the end she was still under 2 years contract so she decided to wait another 6 more months. I decided to go to Macs to eat the $1.95 chicken fillet burger as usual (since I was broke) when who did I see on orchard Road, but my Auntie the nun, my namesake!! Yup, she was roaming around with another nun, looking for OG. Instead, directed her to Metro, then went off to Macs. After eating, still had free time to my movie so we went to Borders. I had a surprise, Letchi bought me the True Singapore Ghost Stories Colume 11!!! I didn't know it was for me, when she paid for it, she asked for a pen, wrote something inside and passed it to me. I thought it was very sweet of her considering she just go to know me and we just got close and my birthday had passed.

Anyway, watched the movie later with my sister. Was an okay movie. Typical teenage drama. Linday Lohan is the star. Like her eyeliner. brough back memories of when I was 18. Linday is kinda acting in all the teenage drama right now like the upcoming mean Girls. By the way I wonder what happened to Amanda Bynes. Hmm.

Anyway, the following Thursday, since I started work at 5pm, and Letchmi was off, she called me out again and we watched The Day After Tomorow. Wow, I seem to be watching lotsa movies recently. I like!!! But I still havent watched Troy. Day After Tomorow was good. Loved the special effects, fantastic. Then I saw Deep Impact as well, the following monday on TV. I think Day After Tomorow was much better. So many disaster movies. Did not see Armageddon though. Oh yeah, and last year got this movie The Core... also a disaster movie.. haha...

And then Sat, 28th May, worked in the morning, in the evening went to church, and then after that, dinner at Bt. Merah... In introduced mummy this Western Stall that I ate from before.. then we went shopping at NTUC and spent $50 over!!! :O Haha...

Sunday, couldn't make it to mass on time, so met mummy after church... saw my cutie pie Philip for a sec, they all went for mass too, gave him a cuddle then he was gone.. sigh... but that sweetie really brightens up my day... then mummy and I went to Tiong Bahru, ate at Burger King, since now got the coupons that last sooo long until 14th July... happy happy happy... :D... ate my fav. chicken whopper with cheese... then I went to order my contact lenses... $125 for half a years supply... so expensive!! When I get my pay, I won't have much left after this, the loan and my bills... sigh... seems that because I have astimatism, (or however you spell it) on my right eye, a box costs a whopping $90!!! My goodness. Oh well, the price of looking good. Haha... well thats it I guess for the updates since then.. Have a good upcoming weekend.. and hope I have a good one too, considering all the latest happenings. Haha. See ya!

Friends!

Hiya!!I havent posted in ages I know... been busy... with work.. and when I'm not working, too tired or occupied with other stuff. Got lots to tell, but will tell it later.Today I just wanna mentioned that my friend, Monica Angela James, from my secondary school, called me in years!!

Yup, today being Vesak Day, public holiday, I'm sure everyone of you was out, everyone except lil' ol' me. Haha. My family was over at my bro's place, where my Auntie Marie (the nun) would be there in the evening. I was thinking of going too, then decided against it, as I started work at 5pm, so it would mean I would have to leave my bro's place (Pasir Ris!) at 3plus or thereabouts. So there I was in the midst of watching TV (Mom's Dating a Vampire!!) when I got a phonecall from dear Monica. So suprising. In secondary school, we were okay friends I guess, but i think she had some problems with the Indian gals that she changed school after Sec 3... or was it Sec 2? Anyway, since then have lost touch with her, somemore she shifted house and all that. It seems she finally found my home-made name cardafter 6 years, and it was there that she gave me a call. Luckily I didn't shift house too. Well, it was nice catching up, talked about more than an hour on the phone. She now weighs only 41kg!! And about 161cm. Wow, shocking. Guess and hope we will meet up sometime soon. Anyway, its good that I got in touch a friend after all my friends seem to be overseas or preoccupied. Jesus knows I guess. Haha.

Watched Miss Universe, the remaining 1 hour when I came home from work. Interesting. Australia won! Singapore didn't make it as usual. All the ladies all tall tall with long hair one. Too bad India didn't make it to the top five. But India seems to be in the top 10/15 every year. Proud to be Indian. too bad Singapore doesnt choose Indians to be their Miss Universe. Although I'm not saying if they did we would stand a better chance. Haha.

Looking forward to Singapore Idol soon. The judges were finally revealed Monday night after being so hushed hushed!!! dick Lee, Florence Lian, and Douglas Olivero are gonna be 3 of the 4 judges. The last one is Ken something something a singing label manager or something.

Okay, I'm gonna sleep. Tomorow have work at 8am!!! Gosh. 8-5pm. First time, overtime. Hopefully can wake up. By the way I kena pimple outbreak.... arrrgggghhh!!!!! Night!!!!!!