Jealousy and Hurt

I was really bothered last Monday night. Some of my friend’s actions and words really hurt me, although it was not intentional. So bothered was I until I brought it up to Jesus in prayer and started wailing even. Then I went to sleep. Tuesday morning I woke up, and I forgot all about it. Completely forgot. I mean, I knew briefly what it was that bothered me, but my mind was blank otherwise to the details. It no longer bothered me. Another testimony for our amazing God!!! He provides healing for the heart and soul. Unbelievable, and yet believable. I could not imagine any other way or, what would have happened to me if I had not done what I did in prayer.

And then yesterday while sitting at the bus stop at Purmei waiting for the bus, my mom suddenly turned to me and asked whether I saw the look a girl who had walked past had given me. According to my mom, the girl, who looked a few years older than me, gave me a one over, from my head to my feet and the look she gave was a dirty one. My mom said she stared at her back and the girl turned away. We both agreed she was probably jealous.

If only there were no jealous people, the world would be so much nicer and in peace and harmony. Somemore with regards to yesterday’s incident, I told my mom, I was not even dressed my best. Perhaps its time I stopped maintaining a low profile and show my full potential eh? ;) Put these people in their place :D

The other day Gillian complimented me!!! Yayyy… it was nice. You almost never receive compliments to your face. It’s a known fact. Hehe. But message to all the jealous people out there:

I’m pretty, and I know it. I have style, and I’m gonna flaunt it. So you can just keep on turning greener until you become a hermit! (Rhymes!)

Peace – and all praise and thanksgiving to the awesome Lord for all his blessings.~ Marie

Intelligence and Complacency

PSLE Score: 182
English A
Maths B
Science B
Malay D
Not a very good score huh. It was probably my Malay that brought me down.
Normal Academic (a stream that I never regretted being in)
O Level Results
L1R5:20
L1R4:14
English A2 (was disappointed that I did not get A1)
Combined Science (Chemistry/Biology) A2
History A1 (yayy I always loved History, if only I could have taken Geography as well)
Food & Nutrition B3
Maths C6 (thank goodness, or rather, the Lord, that I passed Maths, or I wouldn't have been able to go anywhere)
Principles of Accounts C6 (I was never a Maths or numbers kinda person)
Studied 2 weeks before the Os. Was lucky to be blessed with brains, and therefore still managed to make it with these mere 2 weeks of study. Had God to thank for too. Complacency has always been my bad point. Despite having brains, if one does not study, one would never miraculously pass. I scrapped through poly with a C grade average, luckily I did not have to repeat any modules nor extend my stay. But imagine if I had actually studied. Lesson learnt for life. _____________________________________________
My Personal Evaluation:
The Seven Intelligence Areas
Linguistic: 7Logical-Mathematical: 4Spatial: 3Bodily-Kinesthetic: 6Musical: 4Interpersonal: 5Intrapersonal: 8
Intrapersonal - the ability to assess one's own strengths, weaknesses, talents, and interests and use them to set goals, to understand oneself to be of service to others, to form and develop concepts and theories based on an examination of oneself, and to reflect on one's inner moods, intuitions, and temperament and to use them to create or express a personal view. Possible vocations that use the intrapersonal intelligence include planner, small business owner, psychologist, artist, religious leader, and writer.
Very true. I can so see myself doing in any of the vocations mentioned.
Linguistic - the ability to use language to describe events, to build trust and rapport, to develop logical arguments and use rhetoric, or to be expressive and metaphoric. Possible vocations that use linguistic intelligence include journalism, administrator, contractor, salesperson, clergy, counselors, lawyers, professor, philosopher, playwright, poet, advertising copywriter and novelist.
Quite true also. Hehe.
Which brings me to talk about intelligence. I am always very impressed with people who are so called intellectuals, who can simply amaze and astound you whenever they open their mouth and speak. And yet, I always believe that one’s intelligence is not based on how academic you are or how high an IQ you might have. From the people I’ve observed, there’s so many smart people out there but laziness is a factor that puts one back. You can do anything you put your mind to if only you just try. Maybe you just have to try harder than some others that’s all. ;)

Getting High

Clubbing. Tell me again why do I like it. Haha.

I was at St. James last Sat night for the first time! It was fun!!! The company made it so! But it was difficult to dance coz I was wearing a dress and heels. And also the type of music played. But tell me again why do I like clubbing. Or why do young people in general do.

Is it the music? The atmosphere? People feeling ‘happy’ and ‘high’ and getting lost in the dance – in the beat of the music?

I remember reading one of the special reports section in Russell Lee’s books about the beats of music that is linked to voodooism or something the likes of it. Ooo. But there is just something attractive about clubbing, you would have to admit. Nevermind the bad air, nevermind the craziness you see around you.

Anyway, 2 glasses of vodka and I was pretty tipsy already… shucks, wish I could have better tolerance. Although I must say, being tipsy is a great way to do things or say things that you would never have done when you’re sober, and claim that as an excuse. But sorry dear people to disappoint you, I didn’t do anything. Wish I had done though (aint telling you what it is, but it isn’t anything bad, don’t worry) coz the opportunity was there for my taking and then the next day I can feign ignorance and forgetfulness and blame it on the alcohol but haha, its just as well I didn’t.

But of course, I was having fun and since we were celebrating a birthday, I was thinking I would love to celebrate mine that way. De ja vu – I celebrated my birthday 3 years ago by clubbing. But I was also thinking, why would I want to go clubbing for my birthday. To get lost in the music? To get high? To forget all the worries and troubles of life and just dance?

It was then I got a brilliant idea as I was lying in my bed that same night. Why not get high on JESUS!!! Brilliant right!!! To have praise and worship to the One I love with and being surrounded with the people I love – that would be pure bliss and it would certainly be much much better than getting high on alcohol and dancing. I could even dance during praise why not. Kewl. So that’s the plan.

I’m so excited. I’ll be a quarter of a century old and planning to celebrate it in a most brilliant way yet. Of course, makan and hanging out is next on the list. Another way I want to spend my birthday is to laugh. Laugh and laugh and laugh and have fun keke. Don’t think I will be able to spend much quality time with friends if we just go to the movies or club. So yeah. That’s my plan. Any dear friends of mine is much welcomed to plan my birthday celebration for me. (Huge hint). Hahaha…
29 more days to go…

Wear Sunscreen

Beautiful video with very truthful lyrics... check it out...
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Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of 99...Wear sunscreen
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.

I will dispense this advice now.Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh never mind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you cant grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked...You’re not as fat as you imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Sing
Don’t be reckless with other peoples hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes youre behind...the race is long, and in the end its only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what to do with your life...the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you wont, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you wont, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary...what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either - your choices are half chance, so are everybody elses.

Enjoy your body, use it every way you can...don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, its the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.

Dance...even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.49 second break in speech -- Quindon singing

Get to know your parents, you’ll never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, price will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time its 40, it will look 85.

Be careful who advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than its worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen...

Love and Pride and Prejudice

Have you guys read the book Pride & Prejudice. I have not but I just saw the movie that stars Keira Knightly on HBO on Sunday night. Wow, I must say it was certainly romantic the English used and the way the male lead articulates it.
“The moment I met you, you have captured my heart oh please put me out of my agony, if only you’ll accept my hand”
(something like that)
Wow. Sweet. How the guy can fall in love with her over such a short period of time I do not know but such is love it seems.
The best part was, they both hated each other from the start. The guy is not very good looking also, at first glance that is. He doesn’t look young. (as she does) But – he has that type of looks that grows on you. Sad, sorta droopy eyes. Permanent ‘agony in love’ kinda looks. And he’s super tall and stands super straight. Dashing I would say.
It’s always the same story don’t you think. Guy and gal are at loggerheads and can’t stand the sight of each other. But guy and gal falls in passionate love with each other eventually. Typical. It’s a very used storyline but it always works. We always end up loving the person who hurts us the most.
The other movie that I can’t get out of my mind is Seducing Mr Perfect starring the really swoonsome Daniel Philip Henney. In the movie the guy is so cold towards the girl (he’s her boss by the way) but in actual fact, he loves her and eventually admits it. And in the movie, she’s such a klutz and he’s such a stud. Oh, go see the movie! Guarantee you’ll have a laugh.
No matter how old we are, I’ve realised that as human beings we can never get enough of love. From my observance, I’ve noticed the following to be true: Love makes one blind. Love makes your world go round. Love can bring the most strongest man to his knees. It is better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all. And – to live is to love, to love is to live.
Also, if you’ve never said your true feelings to someone because of pride or because you think you might get hurt, I can tell you for sure, that will be your biggest regret.
Any comments? ;)
Anyway, if there’s one huge lesson I’ve learnt in life, I must say that romantic love never happens and follows through the way it does in movies or fairy tales. Lesson learnt the hard way. Food for thought ;)

Small Miracles

written on 27/02/07
How prolific could it be. It was about 5 months since I had left the youth group. I had not touched my guitar in ages, but that day in December, I picked it up and started playing, and I was reminded of how much I loved playing, and specifically only praise. The very next day, during work I received a call from Ivan asking me if I could lead praise in February. Little wonder it brought a smile to my face. Coincidence?

It was repetitious. Since 2nd Feb, when I led praise, including all the preparations to ensure that it was God-led, I sorta swayed. Took up my guitar again last night, playing softly lest I disturb my mother and also once again, reminiscing of how much I love playing and singing praise to him, casually mentioning to him if I ever was going to lead praise again as well. Consoling myself that I could simply pick up my guitar anytime to sing praise to him. Lying on my bed that night, too much on my mind to slumber, I heard a beep and saw an sms from Shawn asking me if I could co-lead praise with him. Another coincidence? Another incident so similar in nature?

Last Thursday. Just came back from the Chinese New Year holidays on Wednesday, and Thursday was a killer. Was bemoaning to my ever patient mother about how I dreaded some cases I had to follow up the following day Friday. However it was unavoidable. Went to sleep that night leaving my worries in the hands of the Lord and to face with the brightness of the sunshine of a new day. The next morning arrived. Friday. I got up and out of bed and felt a strong magnetic pull towards my right. Felt another strong pull backwards. Had no idea what was transcending upon me but felt a bit dizzy and had to sit as I could not walk straight. Doctor later could only diagnose it as something to do with my balance. Amazingly, when I could not walk properly and felt so uncomfortable, I felt better as soon as I left the doctors. I had no idea what befell me, but I chose to believe that Jesus had heard my prayers of the night before and granted me relief. When I returned to work on Monday I found out that one of the problems I had been worrying about had been resolved. Is our God amazing or what!