My Spiritual Journey

How one person overcame her falls, with the love of the One Above All

Friday, August 29, 2008

Another lesson learnt..

At today’s event I learnt something yet again about people. Some people, despite not knowing much, will at least pretend or show that they are knowledgeable and have authority even when they are not in such a position. Today I noticed someone trying to make others do things for them, to do something that was a waste of time and does not make sense, and I saw someone else who was more garang and firm in their answer and this person had no say thereafter. That is how one should deal with this kind of people. Show that you are no pushover. This same person also tried to make use of another’s person hard earned resources just because they did not bother to source their own. However when this person was informed that the resources belonged to someone else who had that ‘don’t mess with me attitude’ this person backed away. Interesting. Each and every single event or experience in my life, I always learn something new and something that would make me a better person. Thank you God. Always learn the good qualities from others and pick up their good habits and stay away from the bad. Don’t even waste time with people who are probably wasting your own and whom would just bring you down either in mood, spirits, character, etc. Yeah, a great lesson I’ve learnt in life, a lesson which helped me become the person I am today and a lesson which helps me survive in life.

Aside from this, no, I did not get to see MM Lee Kuan Yew up and close! Haiz.. I managed to see him from a distance of like 10 metres estimated when he was coming out from his car, and the picture that I managed to take of him from that distance was blurry. Oh wells. But it was nice to say that you’re helping out in an event where MM Lee was gracing :D

Sunday, August 24, 2008

I'm NOT conforming to the cycle

You know, the longer I work, the longer I get stuck in the cycle. And you know what cycle I mean. Life here is such: you need an education, paper qualifications, the higher, the better. You graduate, you go out to work. You work, then you need a career. You need to further climb up the ladder. You have to be on top. You have to get married. It’s a must. Singledom is frown upon. Not attached = is there something wrong with you?
Have kids. Complete the family. Wait for retirement. Retire. Then, dots dots dots... is it then that you finally you get to do what you want?

No, I’m not gonna conform to this cycle. Now that I’m working for a few years now, the 5 Cs – cash, credit card, condo, car, career are really coming into the picture. Cash, I need lots of it. Credit card, something that is associated with prestige and a certain level you need to reach – and my income is not within that range yet. Condo, well not really, the only one 'C' that is a not really, yet. Car, oh my goodness, yes! Career, alamak, the longer I stay, the longer career becomes my life.

No no no. I’m not going into that cycle. My mind is made up. It’s not a coincidence that I was just talking about my dreams the other day, and suddenly, the one guy who could help me achieve it comes into the picture. It’s a sign. My goals are set. I’m no more undecided, no more fickle. I’ve set my goals. It’s a known fact: All successful people have goals, and they work towards achieving it. My goal will help me achieve my dream. And the person who suddenly popped back into my life, thanks to God, has set me in the right direction.

Unfortunately, that’s the way how things are here. Once you get stuck in the cycle, you can never get out, and you will think, that’s the way it’s supposed to be. You will forget about ever doing the things you wanna do, and start believing that it’s no longer necessary, because what you need is cash, prestige, power and status, and you WILL work towards getting them.


The longer I stay, the more comfortable I am, the longer I will be stuck and soon I will never get out. It’s gonna take a lot of faith to take the steps towards my goals and to not conform to society but I’m putting my trust in God that He will bless my plans and that it will bear fruit.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Life

Check out the cute little birdie... my mom found it hopping on the staircase leading up to my block about 2 fridays ago.. it was shivering in the rain and probably lost it's bearings.. mum brought it back as there are alot of fierce cats in our neighbourhood.. the next day, we went to Alexandra Village and got it a cage and bird food.. its now officially ours!! The pet shop guy said it's probably a love bird (based on the pictures he saw).. we haven't gotten a chance to bring it to the shop, but when we do, we'll probably get it a companion.. mum named it Goldie..

I never fail to get bored just by watching it.. it took a while to get used to us.. but now it doesn't mind when we come near and would eat its seeds even when we're sitting right beside it..previously it would hope away... it really is amazing to just watch it move, hear it tweet, see how it responses to our whistles. Each time I look at it, I feel wonder and awe, overwhelmed with the fact that this creature is one of the many amazing creatures of God's creation. SO beautiful. I wish it could react more to us, like lets say, a dog, but as mum says, it has a bird brain, I can't expect much... when it sleeps (the picture on the left) it fluffs up its feathers, curls itself into a ball, tucks its head under one of its wings and somehow manages to balance on one foot. Today mum gave it a bath and its feathers were wet, I managed to see its ears.. to little holes at the side of its head.. and its breathing holes are two dots on its beak...
In our fast-paced society, its so easy to go about our daily doings and not notice the little things. I'm not one to say that I'm one with nature or I really love it, coz how much time do I actually devote to it anyway. But when I do take time to breathe, and stop whatever I'm doing for a while, I take the chance to admire nature and all of God's beautiful creation.. have you ever seen anything which a human being has invented that is so beautiful as flowers? The trees that provide shade and oxygen? Ever stop to observe your pet.. for example, my little birdie.. so small, and yet it has a heart, it breathes air just like we do, it has a complex network of a system that enables it to survive, to live, and this is what God has created. Only he creates living things that are so beautiful. What can human beings do.. humans are creative, no doubt, but can they create hearts? What they create are non-living things. Robots and inventions and what else have you. Nothing can beat or nothing is more beautiful than life and God's creatures.
Heartbeats are something that I always look out for, as it's a sign that we're alive, just like our God is a living God. I once said before, with every beat of my heart I can feel the living God's presence so strongly. Of course, one would have to be without sin, as much as possible. It would be hard to feel God's presence with a tar-stained heart. Anything that does not have a heart, or no longer has a heart, is hollow and empty.. and is not alive anymore, its dead to the world, it does not belong in this world..
I can never understand cloning or how it works...how can human beings create life.. or clone it.. it is already altered; its not natural. I guess that's what the Catholic religion is about...and the more I think of it, the more I feel that we should give thanks and praise to the awesome almighty God up above and alive in our hearts.. for He is all deserving of praise, He is all knowledgeable, and it is something our human minds can never dare to even try to comprehend. We would not be able to take it. Look at Adam & Eve and the first original sin. Enough said.

I see your handiwork all around me oh Lord, I see the love you have for all your living creatures just by being who they are Lord. I thank you for making me a part of your beautiful creation. And I pray, that all of us with have respect for life Lord, have respect for your creation Lord, and to give you all the honour and praise and thanksgiving forevermore. Amen.