Lost

2009
So, its a new year already. Happy New Year!!!

Though I have not made any resolutions yet and I don't think I will. This year is gonna be a big year for me, I hope. If all goes well I should graduate in May. I'm probably going to do something totally out of the norm, some might say rash, but I will be following my heart and whatever happens after, happens.

Communion
How wonderful it is to be able to receive Jesus in the Holy Eucharist. This is the part of the mass that I so look forward to. When I receive Communion, the world comes to a standstill because it's my moment with God. For that few minutes everything is alright; everything is possible because I have Him with me. And then mass ends, and that moment is gone. It's so hard for me to be conscious that He is always with me, not only when I receive Communion and a few minutes after it. The Holy Spirit is always with us, but I don't know what's wrong with me, I simply can't get myself out of this zombie like state. I'm falling back into the black hole of emptiness... drowning in a deep dark neverending abyss. And the tar is weighing down my heart again.