My Spiritual Journey

How one person overcame her falls, with the love of the One Above All

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Highs and Lows

Relieved relieved relieved!!

My exams are over and its a Friday night so I thought I'd better post this short blog about my thoughts and updates and stuff like that before it's gone with the wind and I get busy again.. although I can go on and on and on once I start lol..

Firstly, I was horrifed to read the news today about the cleaner who was killed by the white tigers at the Singapore Zoo. I mean, obviously he was going through some stress or trauma because of the way he was behaving leading to the incident, and also because he provoked he tigers voluntarily, but even then its a tragedy. I really don't know why I am so affected by the news, and hope I don't get any nightmares after this! I will be praying for Mr Nordin and I hope you do too.

Secondly, God has certainly helped me pull through during this period. I had 4 exams this semester, my goodness! I also had no more leave because they were all used up for my Turkey & Greece trip. Luckily HR approved my exam leave, coz my exams were in the morning of 4,5,11 & 12 Nov. But I still had to rush back to work after that. And I was especially worried about the 3rd of Nov, because I had a meeting in the afternoon on the 4th and needed to compile a report for it. Based on past experiences, I would have to compile a average of 20 comments the night before. The thing was, I couldn't stay back the night before coz of my exam, and I was very worried as I had only received 9 comments. It was really by the grace of God that I came back to the office on Tuesday afternoon at 2pm and found that there was only one more comment to compile for the meeting at 3.30pm. This was really a miracle for me; only 10 comments was received this month which was pretty unusual :D Yeah, thank you God!

School really sucks because although I am learning some interesting stuff, one of the ironic things is that what I've learn about 'an individualism culture' in one of my Sociolgy courses can be applied to the culture in school. Everyone thinks of themselves only and that is that. Oh, and I tried RedBull and found it really sweet (I thought it would be herbal and bitter) and effective in a way; perking me up and keeping me going, but an ex-colleaugue burst that bubble and instigated that I would get diabetes if I carried on consuming it, despite me saying that I would only do so during the exam period. She was adamant that she was right and that I adhere to what she was advising me to do. The alternative she suggested was Yomeishu, to which a poor girl like me cannot afford at this point in time, $69 for 2 bottles, but some people must just have their way no matter what you say.

Work is the same, highs and lows come about in cycles. Because of being away 2 weeks from the office, I am now struggling to clear my work. It's good coz I get to earn O.T. which will go a long way towards paying my school fees, but its bad because you can get really exhausted and worn out and its really mentally not to mention physically draining. Although when I get the momentum at work I feel that its good to be busy and I like keeping busy and having things to do rather than slacking off the time away and getting paid to do nothing.
But when its bad its really bad and I got to stop myself sometimes and think that there are people who have bigger worries than me in this world and mine compared to them cannot even be justified.
Sometimes I also ask myself whether working this hard would really get me anywhere.

Of course, the characters at work make it less monotonous. But I really wonder why do these people love to be the centre of attention and project themselves as being oppressed by others. There are so many times where I really want to air out my grievances but I shall not subject myself to the level where I start gossiping and slamming about others on my blog. Besides, nowadays when I get mad, I ask myself is it worth it. Thats what these people want you to do anyway, to irk you until you get mad. So why let them win. Also, nobody is perfect. There you are complaining about someone or raving and ranting about others but not realising that you could have played a part in it or that you are the cause of it. It takes 2 hands to clap doesn't it.

Of course, I must share my thoughts about Mr Obama winning the U.S. Presidential Election. Amazing isn't it. I remember reading an article about his Indonesian teacher who shared that he was the only one in his class who said his dream was to be President, and then reflecting about how a person could actually achieve his dreams. You work towards it. It doesn't just fall in your lap. You want to do something in life, you gotta see what you need to do to achieve it, and I was thinking, anybody could be President if they wanted to, they just got to work hard and set out the path for themselves. You are in charge of your own destiny. And I think it was the next day or a couple of days later, when it was announced that Mr Obama had achieved his dream. There you go, he worked towards it. Look at Lewis Hamilton. He knew at about age 10 that he wanted to work for McLaren, and he approached the boss of the company and said so. He was informed to contact them again in 1o years, but guess what, he was contacted instead in 7 years instead of 10, and why? Coz he was working towards his dream, racing and working towards winning them and actually winning them. And naturally, it made me think of my dream. Am I going to carry on being complacent and lazy and remain in my comfort zone or am I going to work towards it.

Anyway, I've got lots more to tell but now I'm off to a blissful slumber where I shall dream of that day when I'm finally free and of the stuff that I would do. Oh, and I'm so gonna have a blast this weekend. Hope you do to! Adios!

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